In and Around

As I was looking out from the office window, just decided to put down a few things which can be seen from where I sit.

My office faces an air-hostess training centre :D, so there is a constant stream of pretty young girls moving in and out, through the day. There are several reasons work doesn't get done during the day, not the least this one - since a lot of time is spent by me and my colleagues just staring out of the window. Another reason for a constant peep outside the window is the long line of the most expensive and good-looking cars that make an appearance in our porch. There have been Lamborghinis, Porsches, and Audis, BMWs and Mercs are a constant fixture.

Our office also faces a Barista, which we frequent very regularly (and unlike college, we order too!). During my nine months here, my order dish has changed quite a bit. I would initially favour the usual Brrrista but then moved to ordering Apple Smoothie, and having gotten tired of it, now order Black Currant Smoothie and an Apple Pie (with sauce). Our version of siesta is to go to barista after lunch, order something with caffeine (to avoid sleep during the afternoons) and chat around for a while - and we really look forward to doing that.

I like my job - and where I work adds to the satisfaction level tremendously!

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In the beginning of the year, I made a resolution that for the next 12 months, I would take life easy. It is to my credit that I have been able to sustain this for half-a-year. I have slowed down a bit, stopped thinking about my career all the time, gotten in touch with a few old friends, and generally have had a more chilled out life. Increasingly, however, there are signs that I am going to get back to the constant-fight-in-life mode once again. Spurred on by a senior's advice that I need to accelerate it a bit, I am now coming to terms with the fact that I have a tremendous fear of failure. And as philosophical it is to say that I need to get over it, I am not ready to. Yet.

Am spending more time in the office these days; though not working so much since I still need to shake off the habit of reading numerous blogs, and constant browsing through wikipedia. It has become addictive to the extent that I am up till 1 in the office since I spent the entire morning on turbanhead.com.

This blog is unlikely to see a lot of activity from now on. Don't have much to write since I don't think about very interesting things anymore.

But then, I could be very wrong about this prediction too.

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In the last post, I mentioned Chasing Amy as one of my favourite movies. Now, I like almost all Kevin Smith movies, but in my opinion Clerks is not only more popular but also better made. Why, I like Chasing Amy a lot has to do with one piece of conversation that occurs in the movie and I reproduce it here for your benefit:

"Silent Bob: [to Holden] So there's me an' Amy, and we're all inseparable, right? Just big time in love. And then about four months in, I ask about the ex-boyfriend. Dumb move, I know, but you know how it is - you don't really want to know, but you just have to... stupid guy bullshit. Anyway she starts telling me all about him - how they dated for years, lived together, her mother likes me better, blah, blah, blah - and I'm okay. But then she tells me that a couple times, he brought other people to bed with them - ménage a tois, I believe it's called. Now this just blows my mind. I mean, I'm not used to that sort of thing, right? I was raised Catholic.

Jay: Saint Shithead.

Silent Bob: So I get weirded out, and just start blasting her, right? This is the only way I can deal with it - by calling her a slut, and telling her that she was used - I mean, I'm out for blood I want to hurt her - because I don't know how to deal with what I'm feeling. And I'm like "What the fuck is wrong with you?" and she's telling me that it was that time, in that place, and she didn't do anything wrong, so she's not gonna apologize. So I tell her it's over, and I walk.

Jay: Fucking-A.

Silent Bob: No, idiot. It was a mistake. I wasn't disgusted with her, I was afraid. At that moment, I felt small - like I'd lacked experience, like I'd never be on her level or never be enough for her or something. And what I didn't get was that she didn't care. She wasn't looking for that guy anymore. She was looking for me, for the Bob. But by the time I realized this, it was too late, you know. She'd moved on, and all I had to show for it was some foolish pride, which then gave way to regret. She was the girl, I know that now. But I pushed her away...So I've spent every day since then chasing Amy...So to speak."

Kevin Smith plays Silent Bob and reserves himself the best lines:

[in Clerks]

"You know, there's a million fine-looking women in the world, but they don't all bring you lasagna at work. Most of them just cheat on you."

Sometimes, in the most unexpected of places, we learn about love, life and relationships.